Angel of God, my guardian dear
For whom God’s love commits me here.
Ever this day be at my side,
To light and guard, to rule and guide,
I am a firm believer of angels. Angels to protect us throughout our lives and to comfort and listen to us in a time of need. Some are constantly felt or seen by the ones they are protecting, while others are rather sneaky and leave their human spirits feeling lonely. Of course, not one person is left without an angel. Not only is every human spirit guaranteed an angel, but every human spirit deserves and needs one. These angels are given to each and every one of us to listen and understand, much like friends. They are loyal and, whether we realize it or not, they know everything: Our fears, our talents and our sins
Now, I am also a firm believer of the “everything happens for a reason” motto. Each person we meet has something to offer. Negative or positive growth, it is up to us whether we learn from the lesson they teach. There is no such thing as a bad friendship or a bad friend. Quite frankly, I call every person somewhat involved in my life my “Best Friend” because each and every soul has something wonderful and beautiful to offer. Yes, if I dig deep enough I could find something rather distasteful in everyone, but there is nothing to put a dent in the enormous amount of love I have for each of them.
Lastly, I believe that sometimes, by some miraculous act, our spiritual angels take the form of a friend or random spirit here on earth. To help give us a push when we don’t want to listen to what we can’t see. I was fortunate enough to have an angel find me and change my life forever. This glorious soul was sent to me in the form of a thin, tan, redheaded, bubbly girl from San Diego who had to live with me for an entire year. Yes, this angel was randomly my freshman college roommate. She had a personality that would capture and engage each person she spoke with. She was extremely thoughtful and understanding and accepting. But most of all she was passionate. She was passionate about her friends, her sorority, her dogs and her God. An avid reader of the bible and a best friend of Jesus, she would openly engage in conversations about her religion with believers and doubters. She had an absolute eternal love for her friends on earth and her friends watching over her in heaven. A love that I wanted to obtain.
Fortunately, she would drag me along around with her. I was a sad, lost puppy who had found someone to follow around until I was comfortable to be let off the leash. It was one tiny act of inviting me to spend my spring break with her on a mission trip in New Mexico that allowed me to break free of the leash and gain confidence to walk on my own. It was this minuscule moment that changed me. Her simple act of love (one in which she most likely doesn’t remember) opened up an entirely new world for me. It was through her soul that I realized how important each and every person in life can be. Because of this beautiful soul of hers, I was introduced to the love above all other loves. Without the intercession of her life into mine, I would be, as Mumford & Sons would say, a Hopeless Wanderer.
“So when your hope’s on fire
But you know your desire
Don’t hold a glass over the flame
Don’t let your heart grow cold
I will call you by name
I will share your road.
Hold me fast, Hold me fast
I’m a hopeless wanderer”.
-Mumford & Sons
So it’s about time to say thank you. Thank you dear angel for capturing my heart and allowing such love inside. If it were not for you, I would not have felt the deep love God has for me nor would I be able to help bestow that love on others. I owe oh so much to you and can only hope to provide the same love to others lives that you have provided me. So thank you dearest Allison Mary, thank you.
A funny thing happened today. God answered my prayers, completely the way I asked him too, everything that I have prayed about wrapper into one instance, one heart felt conversation, one friend. Something my heart has been longing for day after day.
I had given up hope, given up the desire to wait.
And right when I least expected it God showed me someone special, someone I have been waiting on for a long time. That’s when I realized, right when I have up the desire to show God my patience he answered my prayers and because of how far I have strayed from him, I lost my opportunity.
God has a funny way of teaching you a lesson, of showing you he always has the perfect timing, and showing you that he always has something better in store.
Jesus thank you for the wake up call, and while some of the people reading this may have absolutely no idea what I am talking about I just want to say, never give up on God.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart
And do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He will make your paths straight.” // Proverbs 3:5-6
Well, it;s Christmas and it’s only 11. The presents are unwrapped, toys are out, and parents are taking their mid day naps before we start cooking a delicious dinner. Sometimes in the whirlwind of the holiday season it is nice to take a step back and remember just who is the reason for the season. The reason we all come together to laugh and share stories. The reason the parking lots are full of people looking for last minute gifts for their loved ones and the reason everyone who has ever said a prayer to Jesus makes their way to church, even if it’s just the one time a year.
It’s Jesus’s birthday.
People can argue that he was born in August and we got it wrong, and others can argue that Christmas is just a season regardless of you’re religion, with presents, lights, and Santa, but none of it would possible without Jesus.
At Christmas Eve mass last night I could help but wonder if Mary knew what she was in for. If she knew her son would walk on water, preach to nations, have an entire book written about him, or that one day she would watch her son walk to his death to save the world, sacrifice himself for millions of people he has never meet but loved with his whole heart. And even more than that I wonder of she knew that millions of people would come together to celebrate the same miracle she experienced thousands of years later. And all Mary did was say yes, yes to the call of angel sent by The Lord. In times like this when a new year is about to start and families are brought together take the time to think about what God is asking you to say yes to, because you never know where that Yes will take you. And the best part is God will walk with you every step of the way.
Merry Christmas to all, Peace to you and you’re entire family!
• • • Happy Birthday Jesus • • •
Today I am thankful for all the people I drove 814 miles yesterday to see for this beautiful day. For my loving disfunctional family, my fiends that never fail to stand by my side and build me up, for my puppies that always know how to make me smile, and most important the God that blessed me with it all, the unconditional love he has given me over the year, regardless of how far I strayed at some points, is what has kept me strong and smiling through the tears. I hope everyone enjoys their Thanksgiving today, and tell me what you’re thanking God for today!
“Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever. Read” // 1 Chronicles 16
If singing music is praying twice than I might have set myself for the rest of the year today. Not that I would ever stop praying, but music has it’s way of touching hearts in ways no one thought possible. Music has the ability to bring you to tears or laughter, and sometime a completely disgusting feeling in the pit of your stomach. Today has been one of those days where I have drowned myself in music. Starting off with A-Capella to sappy love songs and beautifully sang covers by Boyce Avenue, than to some up beat “Jesus Music” than working its way up to my all time favorite, hearts stirring, tear jerking praise and worship songs that haven’t listen to since the first week of school. All that has brought me to reflect the past four years I have gone through, all the forests fires I have faced and the mountains I have climbed. Scrolling through old photos, bringing back some of the best memories I could never replace, all leading me to the conclusion that God is in the mist of answering one of biggest and most consistent prayers.
Reck me, tear me apart and carefully put me back together again so that I may never want to leave your side again.
I’ve missed mass and skipped prayers, I’ve come to the point that going back to church scares me. Facing all the people that haven’t seen me in months terrifies me. And admitting how far I’ve fallen away from God face to face with someone scares me even more. But now and than I walk into the chapel and say that prayer look at the Blessed Eucharist with an empty heart and a desire to be full again. I tell God to do whatever he has to do to bring me back. For so long I have used St. Augustine’s words in my prayers, “I want to change, but not yet.” And I can’t do that anymore, Lord it is up to you, your timing, your will! Let it all be done according to you and take me home :)
God consistently shows us his love and mercy, wether or not we are paying attention. He never fails for continuously bring the people who have fallen the farthest back to his church. But how much will he have to do for us to turn around, look into his loving face, and run back to him? We all have a story of how far we needed to run away in order to fall flat on our face and turn around, share your story.
"Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid or tremble at them, for the LORD your God is the one who goes with you. He will not fail you or forsake you." Deuteronomy 31:6